i'm tired

do you ever just get tired? not just sleepy, but completely exhausted. like you have been stretched as far as you can go and you dont want to do anything but just NOT think, not talk, not move--- yeh, im tired. but what a place you dont want to escape from. a place where the Lord's voice is clear, His grip on us felt more than ever before. my mind feels like craziness because i dont want to be tired but i do. thats just the power of Jesus, He IS... He is not bound by feelings, He doesnt change. i can know HIm in exhaustion and in freshness. i can be... and right now i be sick and i be frustrated and i be confused-- the Lord says, I know, and I AM health, peace and truth-- Who is He? and who am i that He would speak that to me? there is one thing i cannot grow tired of.. His Grace. that is one thing i dont have to think about at the end of the day, and reason and explain and prove... grace cant even fit into those categories. and cant be logically determined, it doesnt make sense and how i love that. how i love that something we live for and something we live by does not need us to understand--- that no matter what we try to get our hands in, grace is always the Lord's. how vain my attempts to KNOW so much; how often i try to keep what the Lord has freely given to me, how i claim what is His as my own. my sin is me-- i must flee from me-- "Flee the evil desires of youth.."(2tim2:22) i must flee from my attempts to live the christian life; flee my ways to do things-- flee and run to the Cross. it is only there that i can live and be and hope to do- my sin is me, whats yours?